Monday, October 21, 2002
at work with headache. not good for much anyway, so blogging.
big blowup Sunday with husband; turns out he told his parents about the ivf while I was away. then didn't tell me he'd told them. we are still working through how betrayed and excluded I feel about that, and the fact he can't see the problem. bizarre.
watched the fairly amateur "video" last night. the acting and muzak were vaguely porn-movie. I guess it helps to see some procedures. but the bit about him producing the sperm was a guy going into a room - you don't even see the inside of the room - and emerging with an esky a few minutes later. not very reassuring for the boy, not that he's worried. he has yet to produce his test sample, is going to this week. but we're sure that's fine, it's already been tested.
confirmed my suspicion that implantation involves the dreaded catheter-up-the-cervix. they said they normally don't use painkillers or sedatives. they bloody will with me. and extreme care, too; that was the procedure that hurt like hell just after my operation.
a needle into my ovary with drugs sounds like a doddle by comparison
oh, and the Pill seems to be making me bleed. it's day 9 and I still have some spotting. very unusual. breasts a bit swollen too. but I don't blame it for the headache. I get them, especially on Mondays.
big blowup Sunday with husband; turns out he told his parents about the ivf while I was away. then didn't tell me he'd told them. we are still working through how betrayed and excluded I feel about that, and the fact he can't see the problem. bizarre.
watched the fairly amateur "video" last night. the acting and muzak were vaguely porn-movie. I guess it helps to see some procedures. but the bit about him producing the sperm was a guy going into a room - you don't even see the inside of the room - and emerging with an esky a few minutes later. not very reassuring for the boy, not that he's worried. he has yet to produce his test sample, is going to this week. but we're sure that's fine, it's already been tested.
confirmed my suspicion that implantation involves the dreaded catheter-up-the-cervix. they said they normally don't use painkillers or sedatives. they bloody will with me. and extreme care, too; that was the procedure that hurt like hell just after my operation.
a needle into my ovary with drugs sounds like a doddle by comparison
oh, and the Pill seems to be making me bleed. it's day 9 and I still have some spotting. very unusual. breasts a bit swollen too. but I don't blame it for the headache. I get them, especially on Mondays.
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