Thursday, November 20, 2003
he's having a long early evening sleep, for which I'll pay later, I guess.
quickly, more hospital notes:
Friday, 2 days old: dozing in hospital, feeling the start of that satisfaction of being able to feed my baby with my body, the bizarre idea the midwives have that I should be able to be lucid at any time, let alone 2 am!
while everyone tells me to rest.
for now, a shower is a fine thing. how long before I want to be "normal" again? no need now, still his first bath to do today.
yesterday - I was still drugged up, less than 24 hours out of surgery. can't believe we actually received visitors.
in the evening - dh has gone home to sleep tonight - he was throwing up and exhausted - and I'm not alone in this room, but I feel alone, in a good way - A. is still a part of me.
Monday, coming home: who needs rollercoasters and thrillseeking sports - nothing compared to the white-knuckle terror of putting your 5 day old baby in a car and driving home in city traffic. what a bizarre thing to do. and already he's getting a sucking mark on his lip, a tiny spot or 2 - he's no longer perfect. but he still is, of course.
quickly, more hospital notes:
Friday, 2 days old: dozing in hospital, feeling the start of that satisfaction of being able to feed my baby with my body, the bizarre idea the midwives have that I should be able to be lucid at any time, let alone 2 am!
while everyone tells me to rest.
for now, a shower is a fine thing. how long before I want to be "normal" again? no need now, still his first bath to do today.
yesterday - I was still drugged up, less than 24 hours out of surgery. can't believe we actually received visitors.
in the evening - dh has gone home to sleep tonight - he was throwing up and exhausted - and I'm not alone in this room, but I feel alone, in a good way - A. is still a part of me.
Monday, coming home: who needs rollercoasters and thrillseeking sports - nothing compared to the white-knuckle terror of putting your 5 day old baby in a car and driving home in city traffic. what a bizarre thing to do. and already he's getting a sucking mark on his lip, a tiny spot or 2 - he's no longer perfect. but he still is, of course.
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