Monday, November 17, 2003
that he's (as you can see) forcing me to live in the moment. and that I like it. I know this time with my first baby will never be again.
that now I understand why I wanted to do this. I guess I knew there was something...and this is what it is.
that I babble to him when he's feeding about the big wide world out there, and how cute his nose is too.
that Lord, I'd love a good night's sleep - and know I won't get it.
that time is now precious, but also that there are a lot of irrelevancies in life that can be dumped to make time for him and the things that actually matter.
that I am so lucky to have this lovely house, the time to really focus on him, all these useful baby things (he's sleeping in the pram beside me, so I don't have to worry about the dog licking him, the baby monitor let me move around while he slept - small, helpful things)
that quite possibly this is the best week of my entire life, past and future.
I thought the pg hormones were meant to wear off and yes, I've cried once or twice from tiredness and when I felt dh might be not supporting me (of course he's been wonderful), but there is something else going on here - something deep down in my body and soul.
that probably there is no way to say all this that will get it across to anyone who hasn't been here.
that now I understand why I wanted to do this. I guess I knew there was something...and this is what it is.
that I babble to him when he's feeding about the big wide world out there, and how cute his nose is too.
that Lord, I'd love a good night's sleep - and know I won't get it.
that time is now precious, but also that there are a lot of irrelevancies in life that can be dumped to make time for him and the things that actually matter.
that I am so lucky to have this lovely house, the time to really focus on him, all these useful baby things (he's sleeping in the pram beside me, so I don't have to worry about the dog licking him, the baby monitor let me move around while he slept - small, helpful things)
that quite possibly this is the best week of my entire life, past and future.
I thought the pg hormones were meant to wear off and yes, I've cried once or twice from tiredness and when I felt dh might be not supporting me (of course he's been wonderful), but there is something else going on here - something deep down in my body and soul.
that probably there is no way to say all this that will get it across to anyone who hasn't been here.
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