Tuesday, November 23, 2004
got through this day OK. it was a little strange seeing the baby as a "visitor" instead of my little responsibility. I made sure I fed him dinner tonight, though. he, dh, Dad and I went across to the park and we watched him crawl around on the grass in the sunshine. which is the sort of thing I wanted to come back to Melbourne for. just not like this.
we get our news tomorrow. hopefully not The Information, as Amis puts it.
the more I read and think, the less likely it is that I'll be able to safely carry another baby. I was so confident that it worried me. and rightly so, it seems. a gestational surrogate is a possibility, I suppose, but I haven't even broached it with dh yet, and the laws here are funny about that kind of thing - if I could find such a woman.
someone on a bulletin board I was on said she and her dh had decided that her baby needed its Mom more than they needed another child. which is what it comes down to, if there's a real risk that being pg could resurrect this thing that I'm telling myself I've cleared from my body.
we get our news tomorrow. hopefully not The Information, as Amis puts it.
the more I read and think, the less likely it is that I'll be able to safely carry another baby. I was so confident that it worried me. and rightly so, it seems. a gestational surrogate is a possibility, I suppose, but I haven't even broached it with dh yet, and the laws here are funny about that kind of thing - if I could find such a woman.
someone on a bulletin board I was on said she and her dh had decided that her baby needed its Mom more than they needed another child. which is what it comes down to, if there's a real risk that being pg could resurrect this thing that I'm telling myself I've cleared from my body.
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