Wednesday, June 15, 2005

I don't now, nor will I ever, belong to the "grateful for cancer" club.

but I'll say this for it: in a world where we spend a lot of time comparing ourselves to other people, or other possible selves, it's making me feel lucky, for now. because I am not currently a person with terminal cancer. I am more happy than ever to carry out menial tasks for my child, just because I'm glad to be here to do it. I could, of course, be dwelling on what life would be like without it (3 months pregnant?). but that just ends in me beating up on myself for not going to the dr earlier. so I don't. I compare myself to those who haven't survived it, to a possible me who had metastasis, and I try to feel lucky.

I did my last, I hope, blood test today, before the last, I hope, chemo tomorrow. those levels had better be up there, because I'm so OVER sitting and smiling at A. while a nurse draws blood, like it's fun or something. at least radio will be a different form of insult to my body.

Ah, I am also in that club. And I am also greatful that, for the time-being at least, my situation is good. There are lots of things I am greatful for. Cancer is not one of them, though being currently cancer-free is.

Lots of good wishes for you. I hope tomorrow is the last of chemos you ever have to face.
Oh I have to say, totally OT that I'm so glad you changed your template because now you have a working RSS feed! I read everything via feed readers now and I was missing your posts all of the time.

I will be thinking of you...
RSS without any code! bless Blogger's cotton socks...and glad you're going so well with Madison and the whole backstory, Dawn.

hey Louise. let's hang in there together, eh?
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