Wednesday, June 15, 2005

 
I don't now, nor will I ever, belong to the "grateful for cancer" club.

but I'll say this for it: in a world where we spend a lot of time comparing ourselves to other people, or other possible selves, it's making me feel lucky, for now. because I am not currently a person with terminal cancer. I am more happy than ever to carry out menial tasks for my child, just because I'm glad to be here to do it. I could, of course, be dwelling on what life would be like without it (3 months pregnant?). but that just ends in me beating up on myself for not going to the dr earlier. so I don't. I compare myself to those who haven't survived it, to a possible me who had metastasis, and I try to feel lucky.

I did my last, I hope, blood test today, before the last, I hope, chemo tomorrow. those levels had better be up there, because I'm so OVER sitting and smiling at A. while a nurse draws blood, like it's fun or something. at least radio will be a different form of insult to my body.

# posted by baby @ 12:51 PM
Comments:
Ah, I am also in that club. And I am also greatful that, for the time-being at least, my situation is good. There are lots of things I am greatful for. Cancer is not one of them, though being currently cancer-free is.

Lots of good wishes for you. I hope tomorrow is the last of chemos you ever have to face.
# posted by Anonymous Anonymous : 3:13 PM
 
Oh I have to say, totally OT that I'm so glad you changed your template because now you have a working RSS feed! I read everything via feed readers now and I was missing your posts all of the time.

I will be thinking of you...
# posted by Blogger Dawn : 2:10 AM
 
RSS without any code! bless Blogger's cotton socks...and glad you're going so well with Madison and the whole backstory, Dawn.

hey Louise. let's hang in there together, eh?
# posted by Blogger baby : 7:52 PM
 
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